My project is about my life-long struggle with depression and anxiety and my journey to overcome it. Many people are familiar with the term euphoria, an intense feeling of happiness, while less are aware of its antonym, dysphoria. Dysphoria is a profound state of unhappiness and dissatisfaction. Although I’ve had symptoms of depression and anxiety for my whole life, I spent almost all of that time denying the fact that it was a problem. “Mental illness is like fighting a war where the enemy’s strategy is to convince you that the war isn’t actually happening (source).” This quote resonates for me because for the first twenty years of my life I was unaware that I wasn’t mentally healthy. For a while I refrained from getting diagnosed out of fear that if I got psychologically evaluated I might be told that the way I felt was normal as I had been told many times before by those close to me. A few months ago I decided that I’d had enough and I began seeing a psychiatrist to recognize mental illness within myself. As an artist, it was imperative for me to create work during this process that would both document this critical moment of my life as well as engage in deeper self-understanding and acceptance of my mental illness.